getting into the christmas season

usually i am overly excited about christmas, 
but i admit this season that this feeling has not struck me so. 
thankfully, wonderful men like this help me feel more in the spirit
and remind me of the cheer of december.
because really,
i have so much to be thankful for. 
and that in itself, is good enough.


i don't want to leave this bed..

sad all over
my heart has changed
it's been broken
it 's been reminded 
it's been enlightened..
i am not myself
i can't seem to shake this feeling
just want to lay down..
close my eyes